Posted May 4th, 2012 by Leah and filed in Word of Encouragement

Jim and I very rarely argue, but recently, we had a terrible argument shouting words that wound. Fortunately we didn’t let the sun go down without asking each other, and God, for forgiveness.

WHAT HAPPENED? The question I pondered before the Lord.

My fleshly nature. A fear. A really scary, ugly, selfish fear.

WHAT HAPPENED? I repeated.

I reacted to the fear instead of waiting and responding to my faith.


I was trying to, once again, over plan! Which, really, means control. The variable, that scary, ugly, selfish fear…those 2 measly words that flame a little spark of a question into wild fire, “what if?”

There is a delicate balance of working in a business where every single tedious detail counts and living a life of trusting life’s details to God.

When my response is:

God knows the plans he has for my life and they are good plans…God causes all things work together for my good and His glory…I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me by the power of the Holy Spirit…I will choose to walk in the Spirit and deny my flesh…God will keep me in perfect peace when I keep my mind on Him…If I lack wisdom, I will just ask God who gives it liberally without finding fault…and I will do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider the other person more important than myself…

When my response is to remember Words deeply planted in my soul, I lay down the tendency to over-plan and live, truly live, in the present…in His Presence, where I can breathe again.

WHAT HAPPENED? I was trying to get my way the wrong way, by compulsive planning, which leads to that terriorist “what if”!

The Garden at The Farm is a good place to ask WHAT HAPPENED? I can plan all day long, but that idol is futile, vain and of no use at all in the Garden. For in God’s appointed time all will bloom and grow and die. Yes, the Garden is the perfect spot to respond by fully surrendering and filling the air with praise. I ever so carefully uproot those blooming weeds…for they are still weeds. For that which is not faith is fear, and there is no room for fear in our Garden.


That place where awe comes upon your soul. That place where fresh air clears your perspective until rest returns. The bounty of your heart’s Garden is in the palm of God’s hand. If you are struggling with a “what happened” in your life, return to the Garden with God, He restores completely.

Lord Jesus, we release our tightly bound fists into open palms of praise…FOR EVERYTHING you have allowed into our lives. Yes, we unfurl fingers in faith, revealing surrendered palms ready to embrace your perfect plan for our lives. Forgive us when we over-plan our lives and argue in defense of our best efforts. Uproot those deep fears and replace all those scary detailed places with your good plans, your ways, your love. We lay down our human resources, and in response, we simply believe. Thank you Father!

One thing have I asked of the Lord,

that will I seek after;

that I may dwell {live, abide, grow old} in the house of the Lord

all the days of my life,

to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord

and to inquire in his temple.  

Psalm 27:4

Have a weekend filled with beauty and holiness!



P.S.  Tomorrow watch for a Save the Date!  I am speaking in DeLand on May 19th.

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